Falling in love as a widow is messy and complicated.It is an equally worthwhile and challenging endeavor. I don’t regret it for a second. I am so over the moon with my life now, my fiance and the life we are building. Yet being re-partnered does not take away or diminish my grief or pain of losing my first true love.My grief and pain from the death of my late husband, Ryan, is the same as it ever was. It is the ever-present wild beast inside of me. It is raw, dark, and heavy. It takes no prisone

Falling in love and building a life with someone as a widow is a huge leap of faith. It takes courage to let yourself love someone and share a life with them when you know so intimately how fast it can all be taken away without warning or cause. How having the other side of the closet filled to be used by someone is not a guarantee. It is scary to rebuild your life and trust that it doesn't all fall apart again. And the truth is, you can trust that history won't repeat itself but still live with